Today I am reflecting on Monday blues. I can’t help thinking about others who are experiencing Monday blues because of their job or school. I have neither. Isn’t that a good thing then? No more Monday blues. Of course there are people who hold a job that they like which also pays their bill. God bless these people. Us too, but that's not my main point to talk about here.
I have never been a blogger or a youtuber. I know a few of them who become millionaire from writing and making videos. Michelle Phan, a top notch youtuber and beauty guru became Lancome's spokesperson. That is an extreme example of luck and success I must say. Briohny Smyth whose acro-yoga video went viral on youtube is now seen on TV for a milk brand. On the other hand, there are far too many videos that never get to be on top or rarely found by viewers. But we anchor our dreams based on successful examples, aren’t we? If we get stuck by fear, then we’ll never start our project of happiness.
I am fearful too everyday, picturing what will I look like in a year time from now. Will I have a clearer career path by then or still as lost? I made a decision to give myself one year to experiment and do what I had been wanting to do. I wanted to learn photoshop and videography. I think it’s a really cool skill and it always amaze me when designers accentuate pictures and make them even more beautiful. They can make your zits or another person disappear, make you jawbone more prominent, change the clouds; I just think it’s really cool and useful.
Teaching is no longer my top priority. I still would love to live and serve people out of pole but I want to do it in a different way. Teaching is one way but I have done it for 5 years. I think it’s time for me to move on. Pole photography is an area that is getting more popular and so are video posting on Instagram and pole gear online shop. But these are not my interest either.
I currently spend a lot of time in creating and improving my website. This blog that you are reading is just one part of the website. If you scroll up, you will be able to see other tabs such as “home”, “tv shows” and “publicity”. I mentioned it here because most people are directed here via my FB post. Some people do not realise that this blog is under the umbrella of my website and there are other parts to it. This website is my current interest. I spent time gathering my materials that were scattered in different places. I like that now they have a home and can be easily shared with many. I've wanted this for a long time and now I can put a tick inside this box.
I have interest in writing too since young. I just never really get to do it seriously or regularly. Now with my ample free time I want to keep at it and provide my readers with honest and original content. The internet allows me to gather followers which is a great source of motivation. There is narcissism in every performer (or writer in this case). It makes us feel extra good when we get audience. This new hobby is what excite me day to day. Another new day means learning another new website skill or writing a new blog post. I feel fulfilled when I create something.
There is no life that is stress free. But I wish to have as few Monday blues as possible, to look forward to every new day (because I love whatever I do) and live life full of purpose (at least to myself first, if it's not yet for others). While this can't happen at this instance, I am still hopeful that I (and make that to as many of us if that's your wish too) dare to take the route.